Between being unemployed for 3 months and surviving on babysitting money, and having to walk everywhere... Going from countless place to countless place looking for a job that would still allow me to babysit the amazing kids that God put into my care... only to be denied countless times... By the time November came I was desperate. But God... had something amazingly special just for me...
As of October 20th: I'm blessed to say that I get to babysit this little monkey. His name is Conner Michael. He is the cutest baby boy that I have ever watched. With him this are crazy, cutting 4 top teeth at once and still having a cute, little trouble making smile on his face, there is NEVER a dull moment with this little monkey. I'm so blessed to watch him. I'm so blessed that I get the privilege to re-kindle the friendship with his mom and dad too. :)
As of November 10th: I went to Open House @ Cayuga Community College, to see if I could find one more excuse for me not to go back to school. And God blew me away. The people there were a little to nice... I was like I think I've landed in the CCC Stepford Wives. It was kinda creepy. But I had a blast. I was talking to one of the Admissions Staff, and she told me that I was already excepted!! All she wanted to know was when I was coming!!! So finally I made up my mind, and needless to say that I will be a freshmen ((again:O)) this coming Fall 2010. God is so good.
As of November 24th: I was blessed with a job. Now those of you who know me, I HATE fast food, but when Pizza Hut called me back I was a little to eager to say yes... Now I don't know if it was out of desperation, but I knew that I was going to get the job. And that's right, I LOVE IT. I am a server ((for now!!)). And what is supposed to take me 1-2 months to learn, has only taken me 2 weeks. My managers are amazed at how fast that I have pick things up. Plus it doesn't help that they kind threw me to the wolves but I learn better that way. ((I think that's why God has had me in this fire for most of my life...hehehe)) I can server 5 tables at once, and keep everyone happy...and yes the little ones still call me... "Miss Brown Lady" but I really don't mind... ;)
And as of yesterday December 5th: I was blessed with a car. Yes, I FINALLY have a car. Now I say finally but God knew what He was doing. The other night I walked home from Pizza Hut and the lady that I used to be prayer partners with ((at the church that I got kicked out of)) was dropping her husband off at the Factory...and she saw me in the parking lot and was like... "Get in!!!" ((even though she is not allowed to talk to me)) Well, as we were in her car she was asking me questions...
B: "Why are you walking?"
Me: I've always walk. I don't have a car and I haven't had good work. I can't make a payment even if I wanted too.
B: Well I have a car that just sitting in my front lawn, that no one will take. Can I bless you with it??
Me: How come no one will take it?!
B: People are selfish and picky. It's a 1996 Dodge Neon. People think that 500 is to much. The only thing that is wrong is that the radiator has a plug in it and the muffler is alittle loud but it did past expectation. All you would have to do it fix the radiator. Everything thing else is new and done. I put 2,500 into that and I don't want to put more money to it...
Me: ((dumbfounded!!))
B: Can I please bless you with this car?
Me: Yes :) Lets me on Saturday!!!
Now I have a car. It's such a blessing. It's black ((like me)) and it's such a blessing not to have to walk anymore. I mean Fulton is harmless, but at night all the weirdos come out... and they have no fear in coming up and saying "hello"!!! I still have to get some money before I get it on the road but that was a great Christmas present!!!
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After all of that is said, I have survived the greatest storm of my life so far. God has used to time to change so MANY things! Perspective, mind-set, some disciplines, change the healing of my shattered heart ((so it would heal properly)) are just some of the few things. He used this time to draw me so unbelievable close to Him, and re-stir up desires that I thought were lost in heartbreak, rejecting and actually listening to the words of condemnation that have been spoken towards me. In this time God made me realize that there is soooo much more to being a Christian than I could possible ever imagine. Yeah I may not understand all of it, and I may not get it right, but it's in our weakness God makes Himself strong... And He is such a patient, gracious and loving, corrective Teacher!!! AHHHHHHHH...
I'm so blessed and the funny thing is: "It's only the beginning..." ~God~
Thank you all of you that have been praying for me, and those that I can call me true friends... Without you in my lives, I don't know if I would have been able to hold it all together. Thanks again for your friendship and love. All of you are amazing... ♥
