Sunday, December 6, 2009

It's snowing... ♥

It's December!!! So many things are changing, and FINALLY for the better!!! But it's in the crappy ((for lack of a better word)) times that we learn so much... and that's what it's been like these past to months!!


Between being unemployed for 3 months and surviving on babysitting money, and having to walk everywhere... Going from countless place to countless place looking for a job that would still allow me to babysit the amazing kids that God put into my care... only to be denied countless times... By the time November came I was desperate. But God... had something amazingly special just for me...


As of October 20th: I'm blessed to say that I get to babysit this little monkey. His name is Conner Michael. He is the cutest baby boy that I have ever watched. With him this are crazy, cutting 4 top teeth at once and still having a cute, little trouble making smile on his face, there is NEVER a dull moment with this little monkey. I'm so blessed to watch him. I'm so blessed that I get the privilege to re-kindle the friendship with his mom and dad too. :)



As of November 10th: I went to Open House @ Cayuga Community College, to see if I could find one more excuse for me not to go back to school. And God blew me away. The people there were a little to nice... I was like I think I've landed in the CCC Stepford Wives. It was kinda creepy. But I had a blast. I was talking to one of the Admissions Staff, and she told me that I was already excepted!! All she wanted to know was when I was coming!!! So finally I made up my mind, and needless to say that I will be a freshmen ((again:O)) this coming Fall 2010. God is so good.


As of November 24th: I was blessed with a job. Now those of you who know me, I HATE fast food, but when Pizza Hut called me back I was a little to eager to say yes... Now I don't know if it was out of desperation, but I knew that I was going to get the job. And that's right, I LOVE IT. I am a server ((for now!!)). And what is supposed to take me 1-2 months to learn, has only taken me 2 weeks. My managers are amazed at how fast that I have pick things up. Plus it doesn't help that they kind threw me to the wolves but I learn better that way. ((I think that's why God has had me in this fire for most of my life...hehehe)) I can server 5 tables at once, and keep everyone happy...and yes the little ones still call me... "Miss Brown Lady" but I really don't mind... ;)


And as of yesterday December 5th: I was blessed with a car. Yes, I FINALLY have a car. Now I say finally but God knew what He was doing. The other night I walked home from Pizza Hut and the lady that I used to be prayer partners with ((at the church that I got kicked out of)) was dropping her husband off at the Factory...and she saw me in the parking lot and was like... "Get in!!!" ((even though she is not allowed to talk to me)) Well, as we were in her car she was asking me questions...


B: "Why are you walking?"
Me: I've always walk. I don't have a car and I haven't had good work. I can't make a payment even if I wanted too.
B: Well I have a car that just sitting in my front lawn, that no one will take. Can I bless you with it??
Me: How come no one will take it?!
B: People are selfish and picky. It's a 1996 Dodge Neon. People think that 500 is to much. The only thing that is wrong is that the radiator has a plug in it and the muffler is alittle loud but it did past expectation. All you would have to do it fix the radiator. Everything thing else is new and done. I put 2,500 into that and I don't want to put more money to it...
Me: ((dumbfounded!!))
B: Can I please bless you with this car?
Me: Yes :) Lets me on Saturday!!!
Now I have a car. It's such a blessing. It's black ((like me)) and it's such a blessing not to have to walk anymore. I mean Fulton is harmless, but at night all the weirdos come out... and they have no fear in coming up and saying "hello"!!! I still have to get some money before I get it on the road but that was a great Christmas present!!!
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After all of that is said, I have survived the greatest storm of my life so far. God has used to time to change so MANY things! Perspective, mind-set, some disciplines, change the healing of my shattered heart ((so it would heal properly)) are just some of the few things. He used this time to draw me so unbelievable close to Him, and re-stir up desires that I thought were lost in heartbreak, rejecting and actually listening to the words of condemnation that have been spoken towards me. In this time God made me realize that there is soooo much more to being a Christian than I could possible ever imagine. Yeah I may not understand all of it, and I may not get it right, but it's in our weakness God makes Himself strong... And He is such a patient, gracious and loving, corrective Teacher!!! AHHHHHHHH...
I'm so blessed and the funny thing is: "It's only the beginning..." ~God~
Thank you all of you that have been praying for me, and those that I can call me true friends... Without you in my lives, I don't know if I would have been able to hold it all together. Thanks again for your friendship and love. All of you are amazing... ♥

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Changes...

Wow, It's been a while since I've been on here...and alot has changed since than. Currently unemployed and not on unemployment. But despite being jobless, God is still good and He is still in control. And preparing the way for something new and exciting... And even though I can't phathom all that is in His plan... I know, that I know, that I know... That God has nothing but GREAT things in store... <3



Worship Him with all my heart
Worship Him with all my might
Worship God for who He is
Worship God for what has done and has yet to do
Worship Him
Worship Him
Worship God...

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Holy crap... It's been awhile and since then alot has changed. Weird how that happends. Growing up, becoming an adult is NOT what you thought it was...thats for sure. This adventure has been a fight but so worth it.

Between quitting my job, becoming a nanny, and going back to school in January!!! All in this process called moving forward, and grabbing hold to what God wants. But for now let me introduce you to my little men...

This is Dante Cain. He is the coolest 5 yr. old that I have ever met. This kid may not have alot of common sense but he has a ton of street smart and he crakes me up!!! I love this little man. He is one great source of comic relief. God is funny :) And next is this little ham...
This is Victavious Abel. He is 7 weeks old. And this is the little one that I got to be in the delievery room for. And he's the coolest ham in the world. A complete and total angel. Even though I smell like barf everytime I watch him...I still enjoy that smiling face.
Awe my life. I love it and living it is hard but so rewarding. As for school, I'm going back!!! Yess that rumor is true. I'm going to Liberty University... for Basic Christian Counseling. And yes, I will get my degree (so Elim won't be a complete waste....hahahaha). I'm so excited. :) But this is my life for now...
Full of life, full of fighting, full of moving forward... AND I LOVE IT <3



Friday, August 7, 2009

Another Year Older....

Holy crap, I made it to 24... and I never thought I would be where I am at. God is so cool, awesome, and good. I cant/don't know how to sum up what God has done in/with my life...which is a huge first to me, because all I do is brag about what God has done. Hahahah However there is a time and season for EVERYTHING... So if you get the urge to ask... I may just laugh. I may cry. I may do both or just hug ya and move on! God is awesome.

But to sum up this past year and the hope that I'm anticapting for this next year of my life... Here are the words to a very powerful song. One of my girl friends from Bible School gave it to me. Be blessed... <3



My Beloved by Kari Jobe

You're My Beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is My delight
Come away with Me My love

Under My mercy
Come and wait
Till we are standing face to face
I see no stain on you My child

You're Beautiful to Me
So beautiful to Me

I sing over you My song of peace
Cast all your care down at My feet
Come and find your rest in Me

I'll breathe My life inside of you
I'll bear you up on eagle's wings
And hide you in the shadow of My strength

I'll take you to My quiet waters
I'll restore your soul
Come rest in Me and be made whole

You're My beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is my delight
Come away with me my love...<3

Monday, July 27, 2009

In the Beginning...

In the Beginning...

There was a girl. A girl who was so scared to live life to the fullest that she let everyone push her around. She wandered to and fro among friends, school and the earth. She always knew that she was something special, but she did know how to get around the lies of the enemy until she re-met her Creator.

On this journey of rediscovery, this little girl has turned into a woman. A woman who now knows how specially made that she is. A woman who knows that she has one life, one chance to make a difference. And realizes now more than every that her time is now. And by the way this girl who became a woman is me!

Welcome to this little window that looks into my life. Enjoy and be blessed... :)